One big thing Steve’s death has freed me to do is to give away so many of the things that were just taking up space in our lives. The older I get the less things seem to matter, the less I am willing to move when I vacuum, the less I want to dust, or pack.
Today, I gave away a huge collection of Steve’s fishing gear. I’m sure he had hundreds of dollars in it, but all I wanted was to find someone who would use it, to make another of those connections whereby my husband remains in this world through other people’s experiences. Maybe Eric will cast a line into a lake and think of Steve kindly, and what better legacy is there than that, really?
I’m keeping the cats for as long as they live. Everything else is negotiable. Want a kidney?
The books you sent us have answered a lot of Sam’s questions –far better than I could. He occasionally asks about you and Steve. Notably, as he was arranging them on a shelf yesterday, he wanted to know where Steve had gotten ALL these books from.
The only “downside” to this is now he knows about more kinds of fish and often wonders when we can purchase some of them as well.